( It's a quick snap, defensive, his voice still a little strained. It's a long pause after that, his breathing adjusting itself, his fingers settling from their fidgeting as he considers how to answer. )
I mean...
( Even when he plans it out, even when he knows what he should say, what he wants to say, how can he express it? He puffs out a breath. )
I always want things that I don't deserve, that I can't have. But this... this is the first time that I don't... I don't want to force it, to steal it.
( His voice is trembling too much. He doesn't like it. Doesn't like the way his chest aches when he talks, or his emotions threaten to rise to his eyes, like he's some kind of kid. Doesn't like that Fuuta gets to hear this, that anyone is, but he wants to explain at least a little. )
...I don't want to be selfish. But I can't stop feeling... ( Jealous, he can't say it. )
Ugh, listen. You... you know how to play those game things, right? Like the arcade, or whatever it's called. Would you... show me how? Let's just win him something together. It'll give me a way to feel like I'm doing something without... giving you a hard time. I guess.
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( It's a quick snap, defensive, his voice still a little strained. It's a long pause after that, his breathing adjusting itself, his fingers settling from their fidgeting as he considers how to answer. )
I mean...
( Even when he plans it out, even when he knows what he should say, what he wants to say, how can he express it? He puffs out a breath. )
I always want things that I don't deserve, that I can't have. But this... this is the first time that I don't... I don't want to force it, to steal it.
( His voice is trembling too much. He doesn't like it. Doesn't like the way his chest aches when he talks, or his emotions threaten to rise to his eyes, like he's some kind of kid. Doesn't like that Fuuta gets to hear this, that anyone is, but he wants to explain at least a little. )
...I don't want to be selfish. But I can't stop feeling... ( Jealous, he can't say it. )
Ugh, listen. You... you know how to play those game things, right? Like the arcade, or whatever it's called. Would you... show me how? Let's just win him something together. It'll give me a way to feel like I'm doing something without... giving you a hard time. I guess.