( isn’t he enjoying it, just a little too much? that’s what kirma thinks— and in a way, that should be a good thing, that esikko doesn’t fully hate such a phenomenon. shouldn’t it? but.
in all honesty, there was a portion of this set up to be entirely at esi’s expense; a minor bit of fun, of mean-spirited enjoyment that in some ways would’ve been the real gift of the hour. without that, it makes him wonder if he misjudged things. maybe worse, misremembered them, a glaring flaw in an already imperfect memory.
more than anything else… he’s not sure where esi is taking them, so to speak, and that’s what unnerves him most of all. )
… Only while it’s on, ( is how finally he answers. the thought of inflicting such a thing on someone permanently and without warning strikes him as so thoroughly odd that he finds himself taken aback that esi’s mind would wander there first. ) Though I’m sure the house would be happy to negotiate, if you wanted more.
( a pause, both to chew his nerves down and to ensure that esi is done with his self-examination. ) Shall we walk? ( you know… their date… )
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in all honesty, there was a portion of this set up to be entirely at esi’s expense; a minor bit of fun, of mean-spirited enjoyment that in some ways would’ve been the real gift of the hour. without that, it makes him wonder if he misjudged things. maybe worse, misremembered them, a glaring flaw in an already imperfect memory.
more than anything else… he’s not sure where esi is taking them, so to speak, and that’s what unnerves him most of all. )
… Only while it’s on, ( is how finally he answers. the thought of inflicting such a thing on someone permanently and without warning strikes him as so thoroughly odd that he finds himself taken aback that esi’s mind would wander there first. ) Though I’m sure the house would be happy to negotiate, if you wanted more.
( a pause, both to chew his nerves down and to ensure that esi is done with his self-examination. ) Shall we walk? ( you know… their date… )