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[skinstitch]

about what? i'm just trying to make you happy.

[loosestrifes]

So you're still not giving me your own thoughts?

Why do you think I'd want to kill you? What kind of person do you think I am? Do you think I'm lying?

If you wanted to make me happy, you'd say you like me too. And mean it.

So I don't understand.

[skinstitch]

my own thoughts? i'm pissed off. i don't know why the fuck this is happening or what the fuck is going on.

i just wanted to do something cute for halloween. with you. scare you a little, make you laugh. and now we're here.

[loosestrifes]

You could have said that.

( there's a pause, as he tries to process the foreign feeling of guilt )

I wasn't trying to make you angry. I thought that I was playing along. But then I began to think too much.

I'm not very good at these sorts of things.

Talking to you at all makes me happy, just so you know, so you don't have to... try.

I don't suppose you'd want to restart this from the ghost part again?

[skinstitch]

forget it. it's nothing. at least you told me things even i don't know.

it doesn't make you happy unless i say exactly what you want me to. and i'm shit at it.

[loosestrifes]

What? Wait, why would you think that?

[skinstitch]

"if you wanted to make me happy, you'd say you like me too. and mean it."

[loosestrifes]

Ugh that's

It's, of course I'd want that!

Don't you also want specific things? Specific attention?

That isn't me wanting you to be something you're not. It's wanting me to be something different. I'm the problem, obviously. I even ruined this conversation.

[skinstitch]

you're not a problem. or the problem.

[loosestrifes]

I was sitting angrily in my own jealousy over something that's not even true in the way I thought it was.

I could name a handful of people that would disagree with you.

But I still appreciate it. I was just explaining.

[skinstitch]

what would make you feel good? right now.

[loosestrifes]

Me??

I mean... A number of things, I guess.

Like maybe a movie with you. Or gardening... though I do that alone, so I get lost in my thoughts. Watching the fake stars? Climbing up to those giant nets in the trees is exciting, but I'm always worried I'll fall.

Or just a bath. It's been a while.

What about you...?

[skinstitch]

been awhile since you took a bath? nasty.

right this second? cold beer. something pretty to look at, pressed up against me. a real breeze. fake stars would be fine. sleep that actually works.

[loosestrifes]

Oh be quiet, I shower!

I could arrange most of those, you know. If you'd want my company after all that. Want to try one of my potions? I'll mix it with beer, if you want.

[skinstitch]

oh, so he just wants me to be an experiment.

[loosestrifes]

I have another guy for that, actually. Pre-tested products only for you.

Unless you're feeling adventurous, I suppose. But the sleep ones benefit me, so I know they work well.

[skinstitch]

might as well give it a try. i don't have to do anything for it?

[loosestrifes]

Not at all. If you want a specific type, such as sleep without dreams or nightmares, or sleep with dreams, then I can also arrange that.

The only noteworthy thing is that you'll find it difficult to be woken up for a few hours at least. Such is the point, after all.

[skinstitch]

that's fine with me. no nightmares type sounds good.

[loosestrifes]

Being able to help you with something also makes me feel good, it turns out.

I'll have it ready.