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[loosestrifes]

Sorry. I'm a bit messier than usual lately.

I guess I'm just jealous.

[skinstitch]

jealous of what?

[loosestrifes]

( he gets annoyed again, at first, because from his side of things it must be obvious. he must know. )

Your little boyfriend or whatever

[skinstitch]

my what.

[loosestrifes]

Did I stutter?

[skinstitch]

he's never used that word. no one has. so you're pissed at me for something that isn't real?

[loosestrifes]

First of all, I'm not mad at you. I didn't say I was, right?

Second of all, he didn't use the word either, but he certainly made it sound that way. I'm "allowed" to spend time with you, though, so I suppose I should ignore all of his comments on it and be happy.

You knew who I meant even without him ever saying as much to you?

[skinstitch]

you only get upset about him.

[loosestrifes]

Well he keeps going on about you choosing him over me, you know. Can't I be upset over that?

[skinstitch]

i don't even know what to do with that.

[loosestrifes]

I thought you were. Together, I mean. Sorry.

But you're not, then?

[skinstitch]

i'm alone.

[loosestrifes]

Is that what you want to be?

[skinstitch]

you should know what i want to be, esikko.

[loosestrifes]

I do. I wanted to see if you'd say it.

You can talk to me about it all. Or anything. You know.

[skinstitch]

say what?

maybe you should just kill me. said you wanted to kill someone about it all, right? might as well be me.

[loosestrifes]

You're the last person I want to kill. Why? Why would you run away? What would it help?

[skinstitch]

run away from what? i'd just come back in this hellhole.

[loosestrifes]

There has to be a reason to suggest it. When I think of the same, I'm running away in some way, even when I know I'll come back in the end.

Tell me more? Please.

[skinstitch]

about what? i'm just trying to make you happy.

[loosestrifes]

So you're still not giving me your own thoughts?

Why do you think I'd want to kill you? What kind of person do you think I am? Do you think I'm lying?

If you wanted to make me happy, you'd say you like me too. And mean it.

So I don't understand.

[skinstitch]

my own thoughts? i'm pissed off. i don't know why the fuck this is happening or what the fuck is going on.

i just wanted to do something cute for halloween. with you. scare you a little, make you laugh. and now we're here.

[loosestrifes]

You could have said that.

( there's a pause, as he tries to process the foreign feeling of guilt )

I wasn't trying to make you angry. I thought that I was playing along. But then I began to think too much.

I'm not very good at these sorts of things.

Talking to you at all makes me happy, just so you know, so you don't have to... try.

I don't suppose you'd want to restart this from the ghost part again?

[skinstitch]

forget it. it's nothing. at least you told me things even i don't know.

it doesn't make you happy unless i say exactly what you want me to. and i'm shit at it.

[loosestrifes]

What? Wait, why would you think that?