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[loosestrifes]

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What do you want, to decide to speak to me now? Are you finding yourself low on that feeling of superiority?

That can't be. It's so endless for you.

[conspecifics]

Am I not allowed to see how you’re doing? It’s been some time.
But I doubt this place will let you die.
Perhaps you’ll only suffer forever.

[loosestrifes]

You'd like that, wouldn't you?

( Ugh, hitting him in his big worry. Rude. )

I'm terrible. Congratulations. Hope you're having a great time.

[conspecifics]

( ? rude is a different guy? )

Not indefinitely.
Believe it or not but I don’t solely wish you ill.

( bc he ****— )

I’d invite you over for dinner but as I recall. The last time we were together it ended poorly for me.
I feel like our attitudes in this conversation have been switched.
Given everything.
What right do you have to be mad at me?

[loosestrifes]

Not solely, huh.

In any case, I don't need a right to be mad at you. Just take it as a borrowing of all the rights you had to be mad at me that you failed to use.

[conspecifics]

I don't believe it works that way.
But I suppose there's no stopping you either.

[loosestrifes]

( for a while he doesn't reply.

but eventually he does, and the break between is far shorter than it had been for a long while here in the golden peacock. )

Why contact me now? Like, why now, and not earlier, and not later.

[conspecifics]

Obviously I missed you.

( no hesitation, btw. )

But I didn’t earlier. And I might not later.
It’s impossible to say.

[loosestrifes]

( Part of him is annoyed what seems to be a simple truth.

The other part is convinced that he never missed him in the first place. That Aventurine must have taught him how to lie, or that he's lying to himself. Either way? It's irritating.

He doesn't want to admit it's upsetting, either. )

You could stop missing me entirely if you just commit to leaving me behind.

[conspecifics]

Is that what you want me to do?

[loosestrifes]

Why are you still thinking about what I want?

[conspecifics]

Do you want to play at being miserable and abandoned?
Then fine. I can leave you to it.
But it won’t actually feel any better. Whatever spite you have will be wasted.
You may as well still be on that mountaintop. In spirit if not in flesh.

[loosestrifes]

What is it that you want me to say to you? To do? Are you hoping I'll give up and swoon into your arms??

( don't say yes. )

[conspecifics]

( ……… )

I mean.

I wouldn’t mind that.

[loosestrifes]

Ugh. I know you're wagging your tail, so stop that. It's not happening.

[conspecifics]

( whisper voice: heehee )

If you ever change your mind you know where to find me.