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화이 ⚘ ᴀɴssɪ ᴇsɪᴋᴋᴏ ᴋɪᴇʟᴏ ʙʟᴏᴇᴍʀᴏsᴇ ([personal profile] loosestrifes) wrote2024-03-02 02:47 pm

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[personal profile] waged 2024-05-19 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
( now that's a surprise, and not one aventurine minds severely. even blindfolded he would have recognized the taste of blood on his lips, forced down his throat as he still struggles for breath. a part of him worries that there's something else in there, that this is far more than just the simple exchange of blood, smeared on their lips. a more bold, reckless part of him doesn't care - he has full trust that his luck will keep him safe.

he doesn't expect anything that comes right after, though.

it starts much like an uncomfortable feeling that could easily go ignored. he would have blamed it on the way that esikko's hands wrap around his neck, the varying pressure on it, perhaps the disgusting feeling of blood on his throat that makes him want to scratch it. it worsens by the seconds, and if esikko had longed for a different, vulnerable expression of aventurine's face, well - there's certainly confusion in his eyes.

it begins with a hacked up cough, painful every time his throat strains. he chokes up, then coughs, reaches for his neck, coughs again. for all of aventurine's self-control - and he can almost hear jade in the back of his mind telling him to keep his emotions in place, never to show pain, never to show vulnerability -, his face contorts in pain, and he can tell he's starting to sweat. his ears fold back, and out of reflex, aventurine hides his left hand behind his back. still, and perhaps foolishly so, he attempts a laugh, though all it does is make him cough even more.

he can tell he's running out of air by the seconds, and worse still, he likes it. his right hand reaches for esikko's clothes, perhaps in want, perhaps as a plea. he's getting hard, weirdly enough. together with the natural fear of death, there's arousal and desire, though aventurine couldn't be able to quite tell what he really wants right now. he chokes up again, his mouth and shirt a wet mess of spit and saliva, but even when aventurine attempts a look at esi - he's still smiling, or certainly attempting to smile.

he can't die here. he can't. he can't, and yet, part of him nearly longs for it. )
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[personal profile] waged 2024-05-23 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
( it's quite like aventurine to try and find information even from this situation, when his life is being threatened and he's so vulnerable in someone else's hands. for example - he can tell esikko has wildly sadistic tendencies, if watching him struggle like this is anything to go by. complimenting him when he's suffering from phantom pain? absolutely nuts, if nothing else. though some of his body enjoys the attention, the undoing of his belt and unzipping of his pants, trying to balance fear and pleasure, aventurine finds, isn't something he enjoys very much.

something else he has noted is that esikko likes to have control, that the cards are in his favor and their little game is going his way. fine, then. aventurine can play along to that, lower his head to esi's shoulder and lean there, needy and wanting, so desperately seeking more of that touch to his lower half yet unable of jerking his hips to chase after it.

aventurine tries to speak nonetheless, but the next time he hacks up a cough, blood comes out in splutters. despite all, he learns something from this too - that it's not illusionary magic, not the phantom feeling of a thorn inside his throat, but possibly a real one. it dirties esikko's nice and tidy shirt, a thin string of blood running down his chin, and a part of him wonders if this, too, will anger him. his right hand tightens its grip on esikko's clothes, a quiet plea.

surely his intention isn't to kill aventurine here, when so many had watched them walk together into his room. surely there are other ways of making him this pathetic, if esi enjoys seeing it so much. aventurine will play the part, really. but surely his luck would keep him alive here, right? )
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[personal profile] waged 2024-05-24 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
( relax, he says, like this is quicksand, and the less he struggles, the easier breathing will be. counterproductive, then, with the attention he's receiving, and for all the gasps and moaning aventurine tries to let out, he chokes and coughs more. the pleasure is impossibly nice, and even the ears atop his head can't decide whether to fold back or lean forward.

sadistic, with a desire for control, and totally into blood. nothing like a prince, and for a painful moment, aventurine can't help but wonder what he puts kirma through. that will be something he can assume and find out the answer another day, later.

in the present, aventurine nearly wishes esikko had licked his chin clean then kissed him right after. his eyes settle on his face, the textbook perfection of beautiful, though he knows well this is his fox instincts talking than anything else. relax, he said. if nothing else, aventurine does try to control his breathing, inhaling in particular ways that do not set off his coughing fits. worse comes to worst, he would faint, and have to trust someone he doesn't trust with his vulnerable body.

aventurine allows himself to lean back, left hand still clenched into a fist behind his back, but he brings his right hand to rest on top of esikko's, fingers wrapping around his own, if only to try and seek more friction, something faster, something more pleasurable. he manages, too, to nurture a smile back on his bloodied mouth. )


... Don't you think, ( his voice is strained when aventurine tries to speak, hoarse and weak, and he chokes a few more times before continuing, ) I deserve a little more?

( is he just digging his hole further down? maybe so. but it wouldn't be aventurine if not. )
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[personal profile] waged 2024-06-01 03:13 am (UTC)(link)
( absolutely sadistic, if not downright a psychopath. good. aventurine is always likely to end up falling on the hands of those kind of people. what is he, if not a crazed gambler who plays with his life as a worthless chip of high value?

he winces not at the pain, but at the lack of proper friction. he's way better at handling those, but the half of him that desires intimacy wishes only to be spoiled and wanted, to have his desires met and granted, to feel the ecstasy of pleasure and lose himself to it. it's maddening, coupled with the uncomfortable feeling in his throat, it's too much for a normal person to bear.

coupled, even worse, with the fact aventurine isn't the kind to give in so easily - he finds the strength to lean back, straighten himself up. he's a pale mess, sweating and bloodied and disheveled all around. the fingers around esikko's tighten their grip, albeit leaning on the weaker side, and he moves their hands together, a far steadier pace than he had been granted at all. )


Like this, ( aventurine attempts to say, in between his own pleasure and the excruciating feeling in his throat, ) but I suppose a princeling like you... doesn't have much experience in this?
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[personal profile] waged 2024-06-03 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
( instinctively, aventurine attempts a laugh, and is punished all the same with blood splatters coming from his throat, sullying his clothes further, some of it even falling onto their joined hands. amidst his struggle, he has room to laugh in his mind, think that if nothing else, his blood can at least be used as lube. wouldn't that make it useful?

every attempt at inhaling leaves him wincing and wheezing - combined with the increased pleasure, it's torture in its own way. the moans that escape his throat are uncomfortable, a cacophony of incoherent noises that are hardly appealing. his expression contorts into something incomprehensible, and aventurine leans in again, rests his head on esikko's shoulder, succumbs to the overwhelming sensations.

he has nearly half a mind to attempt a warning, but decides against it before the feeling rising up from his stomach bursts into splutters, the high of his own climax leaving wreathes in his throat that deprive him further of air and forces him to hack up more blood. it's unsightly in every way possible, but he has even less of a mind to care about that at all. )
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[personal profile] waged 2024-06-19 01:25 am (UTC)(link)
( aventurine has experienced many hardships in his life, and this one, he'll say, might make it to top ten most excruciating encounters he has had. not very high, mind, but certainly worthy of being in the list.

the kiss isn't even good, from his part. he has neither the strength nor quite the will to reciprocate, struggling for the last remnants of air that he can get while esi all but takes it away, in more ways than one. what's drool on top of blood and cum, either way? when they're both already this messy, perhaps it's a welcome contribution to the many fluids that have come out of aventurine only. doesn't that seem unfair?

it's only when they part that aventurine realizes he can breathe again. he chokes a few times, suddenly finding himself struggling to actually return to normalcy, and the hug - it certainly doesn't help much, though he only thinks of it as weird. he doubts it's an expression of affection, and sees, instead, something far more wicked in it. the ears atop his head turn and fold back, more honest about his confusion than his face is - because, of course, as he's wont to do: he manages a weak smile back to his lips. )


I didn't take you for a hugger, princeling. ( and he's not even going to reciprocate that, his right arm resting on his stomach and his left... finally free of hiding, from behind the chair. it's only then that aventurine realizes his palm, too, is bleeding, from how hard and how long he had kept it clenched. ) But I suppose this means I was a good date, then.
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[personal profile] waged 2024-06-27 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
( yes is the honest answer, but aventurine doesn't say anything at all. they have done things far more audacious than a simple hug, aventurine being nearly tortured all the while, yet it's really the hug that throws him off.

that's to say, aventurine appreciates the distance, when it comes. being a mess of fluids is nothing new, though he mourns for his formerly white pants, he's not self-conscious over his appearance, and whether esikko truly looks him over or not. for a man like him, he figures, the sight is an appealing one. if only he knew that, as soon as esikko turns around and leave, aventurine will force vomit out of his throat to make sure nothing undesired was swallowed or lingers inside his body. just another fluid, right out of his body. funny, right? )


When the princeling asks, I have no choice but to obey, right? ( lord.

but as aventurine allows himself to relax on the chair, exhale a very well-deserved and longed for breath, he makes the mental note that esikko is really, really high-maintenance.

(not a bad thing, at this point time, ironically. for a suicidal man, it's almost a perfect match, really.) )


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