not just for esi. the moment of struggle against his grip, the gagging, it all elicits a very visible response on kirma's end, pupils dilating, breath quickening. even his tail wags, a bit, before he catches hold of himself again, reining in the violent urge that rises within him as esi attempts to pull back. it's an internal exchange that takes just a little too long to resolve; but in the end, he releases esi completely, giving him control back over his movements.
suddenly, kirma's gaze is everywhere but at the man before him, though it most favors the ceiling. his hands still hover nearby, fingertips barely brushing against esi's shoulders, but unwilling, unable to do more. not without something more dire happening, anyway. )
Wasn't even trying to make you choke, yet... ( kirma mumbles, in a small voice. man. he clears his throat, as if he had been the one on the receiving end of things. )
You're alright?
( because he is still very much hard. maybe even moreso, after that. )
( As soon as Esikko can properly pull back, he coughs and sputters for a bit, his hands slipping away from Kirma to touch near his own throat. It takes him a few seconds to catch his breath. That had been...
Thrilling. In some way that he's not fully aware of. And at the same time, he'd noticed that slight pause in allowing him to back up, and somehow that was even moreso. Why? He hadn't even heard that mumbled comment. The thoughts spawn some irritation in the back of his mind, but when he can't decide who to point it at (himself or Kirma), he breathes out a laugh, more air than sound. )
I'm fine. I'm not used to this, you know?
( A little defensive, and determined not to be laughed at, Esikko is already reaching back for Kirma's arousal. He lifts his eyes to look at the other man as his fingers wrap around the base, and he speaks when his lips are just touching the tip. )
I never expected you to be the impatient type.
( The way he says it is pleased, like it's his own appearance or actions causing that rise in Kirma. It's what he wants to hope, anyway, as his tongue drags out over the tip, his eyes dipping back down. He thinks, briefly, that he wants to say something else, but in the end he ends up too undecided between warning him against rushing him, or encouraging it.
So in the end, he simply parts his lips and takes his erection back into his mouth, this time attempting to slowly allow him further in himself. )
( really— he isn't. not usually. but things haven't been the same between them since the, ah, hand incident, for better or for worse. tonight, kirma thinks it to be the former, even if it does also make the scar on his left arm itch. emboldened by the return to where they had been, he runs his fingers through esi's hair, again, though carefully keeping himself from grabbing hold again. in this way, it's more like encouragement; a gentle touch, a tactile gratitude.
it does make him wish they weren't in the shower. the water is loud, drowning out the subtle sounds of mouth and tongue that he'd normally be able to hear. well— perhaps there will be other times. they seem to have had enough company with each other in the past for that possibility, at least. and—
esi's tongue rolls in a way that completely snaps kirma out of his musings, drawing an audible noise of appreciation from his throat. his palm flattens against the back of esi's head, as if to shove him down; the force never comes, though it isn't for a lack of desire. he's being good— esi isn't used to this— but his hips rock forward the tiniest inch, still wanting to test his limits. he doesn't know why it's so hard to hold back, today of all days, but there's a growing tension in his chest that feels liable to snap. )
( He's not sure what he expected from this. Honestly? Something dirtier, a sort of disgusting he'd end up being unable to stomach and having to back out of. But thankfully, there's no such worry, and any tiny nitpicks are washed away by the hot water and the earlier, brief scrubbing of soap.
Now, he's into this more than he thought he'd be, and Kirma's reactions really seal that for him. It feels powerful, to make him so impatient. The touch of a palm against his head is a little lacking, but that rocking of hips is more like it— and he'd seen it earlier, in the way he'd been forced around him even as slow as it was. It could happen again, he thinks, and the idea of that makes his heart race further, makes him groan around Kirma's arousal and curl his tongue, sucking.
This time, the slight deepening from the rocking of hips is something he manages to handle, though there's the brief tension in his mouth from struggling with it. Still, as he shifts his pale eyes upwards to check on Kirma's expression, Esikko feels like he wants more of a pull at his hair. More to make him lose his breath.
And so he teases, inching down a little further, the automatic half attempt at a swallow tensing muscles around Kirma's cock. His hand slips away, now, to leave more room for his mouth, and braces instead against Kirma's thigh like the other, wrapped around from the back and gripping nails into skin. )
( perhaps their ultimate problem is that they understand each other, on some visceral level beyond words. and when their eyes meet— kirma inhales sharply, his hand immediately clenching at the back of esi’s head and dragging him forward. even if half the teasing and mounting impatience had purely been from a lack of experience, it’s done its job. no longer does he hold back; he ruts into esi’s mouth with abandon, trying to shove as much of himself down his throat as possible. for once, the knot is only a detriment. it doesn’t stop him from trying, clawing at esi’s hair and shoulders as if there’s any distance left to close between them.
like this, it doesn’t take much longer for kirma to come— there’s little warning, only a shuddering of breath and a soft moan, and he yanks back on esi’s hair in order to come directly on his face. it’s a good look for him, he thinks— and one that won’t last one, given their current location. surely he can’t be too mad about that one. the intensity of his gaze hasn’t faded with his orgasm. he stares down at esi as if to burn every last detail of this sight into memory, deeply enough that he won’t lose it the next time they start over.
a pause, and then, he blinks; the moment passes. now, kirma leans down to try and help esi to his feet. the tiles can’t be great for your knees, right… )
( To be honest, he isn't sure how he's going to handle Kirma coming inside of his mouth, so the pull back is almost a relief. But then it hits his face, causing him to flinch with a quiet gasp. It almost feels like he pauses like this forever, the shock of the moment mixing with the strangeness of the sensation, but then Kirma is closer, helping him up.
His knees do hurt, he realizes as he's helped up, and trying to wipe his face clear of the mess Kirma's just made is... less than fully successful.
Strangely enough, he doesn't complain about it. Maybe it's because he's so lost in strange thoughts he can barely recognize. )
Proud of yourself?
( That's what he ends up with, after a moment, leaning into Kirma for support as he tries to rinse his hand off in the water. Despite the wording, he doesn't sound upset— only a little out of breath. )
( proud of himself? perhaps a bit. his arms encircle esi, just for support, of course, and he rests his cheek on esi's shoulder— also for no particular reason. though he hates this feeling of being soaked through, there are some nice things to it; under the running water, all the pointed scents from earlier are slowly being washed away, leaving only what he knows as esi, and, well— it's a shame that most people here won't be blessed enough to pick up on the last one.
but, kirma can. hehe. )
Just pleased you kept your promise.
( as if there were any doubt. well... there had been, admittedly. for once, a bit of trust has gone a long way, though. as his tail wags, it flings droplets left and right despite its lazy pace. )
( A truth, despite everything else about him. Rinsing the last of Kirma's mess from his hands and face, and hoping there wasn't any in his hair, he sighs a little. He'd truthfully like to wash his hair, to clean up, but he's genuinely exhausted now. Two times in a row like that?
Exciting. But maybe he was pushing himself. )
I don't need praise. ( So says Esikko, but there's a smile on his lips that he can't seem to erase. Yeah he did good!! Tiredly, he turns his face into Kirma's chest, enjoying the hot water for what moments are left. )
But I may need to lay down. ( Still, he reaches out a hand to try and grab that wagging, wet tail. ) If you set down towels for this thing, you can join me.
( don't just grab his tail??? it doesn't move out of the way fast enough, and kirma makes a soft, irritated noise at the snatchening. c'mon... )
Wouldn't I be joining you regardless.
( it's not like he can get kicked out of the bed in his own room. (he can.) still, he is diligent enough to grab what towels remain on their way out, after going through several that fall short of wringing all the water free from his fur. see, this is exactly why he— no, he'll swallow that complaint, for now. pointless, to ruin a perfectly good night over nothing.
... even if it is tempting, he thinks, as he lays the towels out. one after another, on his side of the bed. he won't stay there for long, though not intentionally; such is merely the way of the stage 5 (sleep) clinger. )
Sufficient?
( well, he's not waiting for an answer, before crawling into bed properly. )
So long as my side of the bed doesn't become soaked and render me freezing, it's fine.
( He slips beneath the covers himself, immediately breathing out a sigh at the chill of the layered blankets on top of him. This is so much more comfortable than his assigned room. It's terrible.
His eyes have already drifted closed from his exhaustion, but he's not going to sleep immediately, and Kirma likely knows that. It's rare that he's able to fall asleep normally at all. Then again, he thinks he might just be able to, tonight...
But his leg shifts slightly to the side, bumping against Kirma in a subtle touch. )
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not just for esi. the moment of struggle against his grip, the gagging, it all elicits a very visible response on kirma's end, pupils dilating, breath quickening. even his tail wags, a bit, before he catches hold of himself again, reining in the violent urge that rises within him as esi attempts to pull back. it's an internal exchange that takes just a little too long to resolve; but in the end, he releases esi completely, giving him control back over his movements.
suddenly, kirma's gaze is everywhere but at the man before him, though it most favors the ceiling. his hands still hover nearby, fingertips barely brushing against esi's shoulders, but unwilling, unable to do more. not without something more dire happening, anyway. )
Wasn't even trying to make you choke, yet... ( kirma mumbles, in a small voice. man. he clears his throat, as if he had been the one on the receiving end of things. )
You're alright?
( because he is still very much hard. maybe even moreso, after that. )
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Thrilling. In some way that he's not fully aware of. And at the same time, he'd noticed that slight pause in allowing him to back up, and somehow that was even moreso. Why? He hadn't even heard that mumbled comment. The thoughts spawn some irritation in the back of his mind, but when he can't decide who to point it at (himself or Kirma), he breathes out a laugh, more air than sound. )
I'm fine. I'm not used to this, you know?
( A little defensive, and determined not to be laughed at, Esikko is already reaching back for Kirma's arousal. He lifts his eyes to look at the other man as his fingers wrap around the base, and he speaks when his lips are just touching the tip. )
I never expected you to be the impatient type.
( The way he says it is pleased, like it's his own appearance or actions causing that rise in Kirma. It's what he wants to hope, anyway, as his tongue drags out over the tip, his eyes dipping back down. He thinks, briefly, that he wants to say something else, but in the end he ends up too undecided between warning him against rushing him, or encouraging it.
So in the end, he simply parts his lips and takes his erection back into his mouth, this time attempting to slowly allow him further in himself. )
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it does make him wish they weren't in the shower. the water is loud, drowning out the subtle sounds of mouth and tongue that he'd normally be able to hear. well— perhaps there will be other times. they seem to have had enough company with each other in the past for that possibility, at least. and—
esi's tongue rolls in a way that completely snaps kirma out of his musings, drawing an audible noise of appreciation from his throat. his palm flattens against the back of esi's head, as if to shove him down; the force never comes, though it isn't for a lack of desire. he's being good— esi isn't used to this— but his hips rock forward the tiniest inch, still wanting to test his limits. he doesn't know why it's so hard to hold back, today of all days, but there's a growing tension in his chest that feels liable to snap. )
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Now, he's into this more than he thought he'd be, and Kirma's reactions really seal that for him. It feels powerful, to make him so impatient. The touch of a palm against his head is a little lacking, but that rocking of hips is more like it— and he'd seen it earlier, in the way he'd been forced around him even as slow as it was. It could happen again, he thinks, and the idea of that makes his heart race further, makes him groan around Kirma's arousal and curl his tongue, sucking.
This time, the slight deepening from the rocking of hips is something he manages to handle, though there's the brief tension in his mouth from struggling with it. Still, as he shifts his pale eyes upwards to check on Kirma's expression, Esikko feels like he wants more of a pull at his hair. More to make him lose his breath.
And so he teases, inching down a little further, the automatic half attempt at a swallow tensing muscles around Kirma's cock. His hand slips away, now, to leave more room for his mouth, and braces instead against Kirma's thigh like the other, wrapped around from the back and gripping nails into skin. )
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like this, it doesn’t take much longer for kirma to come— there’s little warning, only a shuddering of breath and a soft moan, and he yanks back on esi’s hair in order to come directly on his face. it’s a good look for him, he thinks— and one that won’t last one, given their current location. surely he can’t be too mad about that one. the intensity of his gaze hasn’t faded with his orgasm. he stares down at esi as if to burn every last detail of this sight into memory, deeply enough that he won’t lose it the next time they start over.
a pause, and then, he blinks; the moment passes. now, kirma leans down to try and help esi to his feet. the tiles can’t be great for your knees, right… )
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His knees do hurt, he realizes as he's helped up, and trying to wipe his face clear of the mess Kirma's just made is... less than fully successful.
Strangely enough, he doesn't complain about it. Maybe it's because he's so lost in strange thoughts he can barely recognize. )
Proud of yourself?
( That's what he ends up with, after a moment, leaning into Kirma for support as he tries to rinse his hand off in the water. Despite the wording, he doesn't sound upset— only a little out of breath. )
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but, kirma can. hehe. )
Just pleased you kept your promise.
( as if there were any doubt. well... there had been, admittedly. for once, a bit of trust has gone a long way, though. as his tail wags, it flings droplets left and right despite its lazy pace. )
Should I praise you? You did well. ( :3 )
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( A truth, despite everything else about him. Rinsing the last of Kirma's mess from his hands and face, and hoping there wasn't any in his hair, he sighs a little. He'd truthfully like to wash his hair, to clean up, but he's genuinely exhausted now. Two times in a row like that?
Exciting. But maybe he was pushing himself. )
I don't need praise. ( So says Esikko, but there's a smile on his lips that he can't seem to erase. Yeah he did good!! Tiredly, he turns his face into Kirma's chest, enjoying the hot water for what moments are left. )
But I may need to lay down. ( Still, he reaches out a hand to try and grab that wagging, wet tail. ) If you set down towels for this thing, you can join me.
( Inviting cuddles??? In this economy? )
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Wouldn't I be joining you regardless.
( it's not like he can get kicked out of the bed in his own room. (he can.) still, he is diligent enough to grab what towels remain on their way out, after going through several that fall short of wringing all the water free from his fur. see, this is exactly why he— no, he'll swallow that complaint, for now. pointless, to ruin a perfectly good night over nothing.
... even if it is tempting, he thinks, as he lays the towels out. one after another, on his side of the bed. he won't stay there for long, though not intentionally; such is merely the way of the stage 5 (sleep) clinger. )
Sufficient?
( well, he's not waiting for an answer, before crawling into bed properly. )
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( He slips beneath the covers himself, immediately breathing out a sigh at the chill of the layered blankets on top of him. This is so much more comfortable than his assigned room. It's terrible.
His eyes have already drifted closed from his exhaustion, but he's not going to sleep immediately, and Kirma likely knows that. It's rare that he's able to fall asleep normally at all. Then again, he thinks he might just be able to, tonight...
But his leg shifts slightly to the side, bumping against Kirma in a subtle touch. )
Good night.